5th March 2019
Dear Cooper and Finn,
" It must be hard being away from them. You must miss them terribly." Someone said this to me, and it's true. It is. And I do. When I booked this trip in January it was fine because it was ages away. But now it's here and it's the longest I’ve ever been away from you. Nine whole nights! I think about you a lot and wonder what you're doing. I wonder if you miss me as much as I miss you (I'm pretty sure that you don't). I look forward to FaceTiming you at 9 am every morning (my time), and I look forward even more to coming home and seeing you. But I don't think about you all the time. And even though I'm here for work and I've got lots to do, it feels nice to have some time to myself. It feels like a bit of a break. And I'm a bit scared to say that out loud in case it sounds like I don't love you enough. Like I don't want to spend all my time with you. But I love you more than I know what to do with. And I do want to spend all my time with you. I want to spend every minute of every day with you. It's just I'd like a few extra minutes to spend on my own.
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